灯火阑珊处

众里寻他千百度，暮然回首，那人竟在灯火阑珊处。小时候听到这句话时便深深地爱上了。曾经以为也有个人站在灯火阑珊处等着我。结果浪费了很多时间不停的回头望，一直停下脚步，希望那人能够快点走到我身旁。后来发现是我想太多了，原来那人等的并非自己。现在只能期待我的他就站在不远的转角处等着我。。。

世界上最遥远的距离---泰戈尔

世界上最遥远的距离，不是生与死而是我就站在你的面前，你却不知道我爱你

世界上最遥远的距离，不是我站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你而是明明知道彼此相爱，却不能在一起

世界上最遥远的距离，不是明明知道彼此相爱，却不能在一起而是明明无法抵挡这股想念，却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里

世界上最遥远的距离，不是明明无法抵挡这股想念，却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里而是用自己冷漠的心对爱你的人掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠

Just realised that I can post in chinese too. That's great! I tend to write with more feelings in chinese. Hehe...

1st Feb - 11.57pm

It's a Saturday afternoon and I'm staying at home!

It's a Saturday afternoon and I'm staying at home, sitting in front of the computer. Normally, I would have insisted going out on a Saturday. Saturdays should be spent with friends, talking and laughing about anything and everything. Ever since Sec 4, I had been going out every Saturday with friends. Usually, it's the same friend every Saturday for a period until something happened and we drifted apart. Each and every one of them was special to me at that time and I really enjoyed their company.

Some of you asked why I can stand to see the same person almost everyday. I was really puzzled by that question. Why can't you? Because of this question, I dared not ask you out as often as I would like to.

I've always believed that you can't choose your family, but you get to choose your friends. That's why I have a very strong stand towards friendship and I know that sometimes I tend to be very strict toward my friends. That does not mean that I will stop being your friend because of your short-comings. All of us have flaws. I, myself, am not perfect but I try my best to be a very good friend for you. I can stick with a friend through adversities as long as I know that friend treasure me. As for the above-mentioned few, I kind of dropped our friendship as I truly did not feel their respect towards me, as a friend. Once bitten, twice shy. To think that I have to be bitten so many times before I learnt my lesson.

My dear friends, I know you will try to treat me nicer after reading this but don't... Just treat me as you usually do. I wouldn't want you to go out of your way to make me feel better. It will takes its toll on you as time drags on and you will feel very tired. Don't ever let yourself feel tired in any relationship. It's unhealthy and I believe that such a relationship will not stretch long and true.

I'm a Murderer!!!

I took away a life today! Don't worry, it's not a human life that I'm talking about. Early this morning, I was sitting while doing some work. Something 'squished' under my shoe when I decided to get up on my feet. Instinctively, I looked down and jumped away from the spot with a loud shriek! My colleagues came rushing in surprise... I had stepped on a spider that is the size of almost half of my palm! Disgusting!!! As you all know, I'm terrified of bugs, any type of bugs. Seriously thought of getting MC after that as I felt really sick and was shaking throughout. Alas, another colleague was on leave today so we were kind of short on staff already.

After getting over my initial shock, I felt like I had sinned by ending a life so abruptly. Frankly, I had no idea where that spider came from. My colleagues were as bewildered as me. Anyway, I had vegetarian meal for lunch today to try to lessen my guilt.

This incident got me thinking about some things... I supposed it's called 'fate', 'karma' or 'yuan fen'. Why did the spider crossed my path at the exact time I wanted to step on the floor? If it was a bit slower or faster, it wouldn't have to die in my hands (or in this case, under my foot). Maybe in its previous life, the spider did something bad to me and so this is its karma?

That's right, I believe in reincarnation. Don't you think reincarnation is romantic and gives people hope? If someone treats me badly, I'll think that I owe him/her in my previous life and this is pay-back time. I'll feel better after that and not think too much about why that persone treat me that way. If someone really got on my nerves, I'll hope that he/she pay me back by at least double in his/her next life. That will make me feel MUCH better. Haha...

For Those Who Care

Just last year, if someone told me that I'll be setting my own online blog, I would have laughed in that person's face. I know that's very rude but I wouldn't be able to stop myself. I had always thought that having an online blog is a very weird idea. Somehow, I don't really like the idea of sharing my private thoughts online. However, all that changed when I knew that I will be going abroad to study.
I have this very tight group of friends (you know who you are) who know me inside and out. I simply do not believe in hiding anything from my friends so they end up knowing every tiny little thing happening in my life. Sometimes, I think they are quite bored with it but they have no other options except to listen. Haha... I wouldn't want that to change even when I'm not around. That's why I decided to set up this blog so that they can just come online to see every small, little boring detail of my life.
Have a feeling that this will be a very boring blog so just a warning to people who don't really know me. This blog is meant for those who care...

I've Finally Submitted my Deposit!

That's right, I've finally submitted my deposit for my overseas studying. As most of you know, I will be going to UQ (University of Queensland) for my degree studies this coming July. I applied last July, knew I got a place last August and applied for a bank draft last September. The bank draft is meant to be submitted to UQ as my deposit and I kind of dragged my feet about submitting. Why did I drag my feet? That's because the exchange rate between S$ and AUD dropped just after I applied for the bank draft. I felt a bit cheated then and so, I decided to wait for it to rise back to the rate I exchanged on. My dear friends, finally figured out why? I know I have a very twisted way of thinking. No point telling me that because I've already knew it. Haha...

I almost missed submitting my deposit yesterday. The agency was actually closed as they were having an open house in a hotel. Luckily, someone came back to the office to do some admin work and she decided to help me submit my deposit. Many thanks to her... Damn lucky of me... ^_^